because companies like Amgen are garbage.
if you are in this situation, just look for another job. let them pay you to look for a job. and, don't bother selling anything or working hard for these psychopaths/sociopaths, as they don't appreciate anything.
instead, just get signatures (if that is important to the job) and smile. laugh your way to another job. if the manager has a field ride scheduled for you, just call in sick.
you will get a job soon enough.
just watch your back at all times if you do this.
as for PTSD, I feel for you. it does happen. get professional help for this. in fact, that is another option for you, that is to go on short term disability for "stress", and you can get paid usually 2/3 or 1/2 of your pay on short term disability. make sure you are covered before you make that move.
don't let these narcissists push you around. that is the lesson here. set good boundaries for yourself, and hire an attorney if you need to.
best to you. !
